i'm obsessed

lately i've been obsessed with home design and interior renovation. instead of the garbage reality shows and sitcoms i usually watch my telly stays tuned into hgtv and the fine living network. i even spend the day searching interior design websites. you know what this means....time to move!

here is some of the decor looks i've found. i'm inspired!





also, i've been doing a horrible job at crediting the sites where i get the pictures from. i'm was an english major so i know the type of hell waiting for me for not citing the pictures correctly....but you all know these aren't my pix. maybe when i'm bored i will go back and add the correct sites to the pix i have borrowed. to start off, these pictures were found at this amazing interior design site called http://www.interiordesignideas.net/

to follow-up from the previous post

a friend of mine from memphis, who i've known since 7th grade, just recently moved to georgia. she is among the list of friends who didn't make the cut at the beginning of the year. specifically, she's the one whose lifestyle is less than desirable. anyway, she moved to georgia recently and obviously wants to see me because for her i am still her best friend. so she's been calling
and calling
and calling
trying to catch up with me.
i finally listened to one of her voicemails and it was just
sad
i'm a bad person. who am i to blast someone else's life? but on the flip side, i honestly have no desire to be in contact with her.
sad
aren't friends suppose to lift you up, inspire you? why can't i be that for her?
aren't friends suppose to be a reflection of yourself and ultimately who you want to be? why can't she be that for me?
i've grown so much since the last time we lived within walking distance of each other, but she hasn't...i dunno

'cause we're best friends, right?

since the year started i have downsized the number of people i consider my friends. i'm relentless.
i've been cutting folks left and right for minor offenses. if you make me feel bad, you're gone; if your lifestyle differs from mine, you're outta here; if you're messy, buh-bye; if you don't listen, you're dunzo.

now i don't have anyone to hang out with. no one to call.

so i'm wondering if i should sacrifice my sanity and nerves just to have someone to talk to?

perhaps,find replacements?

how do you even go about getting new friends at this age? my co-workers are not an option. church maybe? the salespeople at my fave stores? my parents? dunno.

perhaps i can use this time to focus on myse....naw, that sounds lame.

here's a song by amy winehouse called "best friends"...apparently she's had the same problem with her best friends.

Best Friend - Amy Winehouse

meatloaf at 10am

it's only 10am and i'm eating my lunch. VP asked me about deposits before i could even make my coffee...today is not starting off too well.

fyi

i just spent an hour changing the template and look of this blog only to return to the orginal format.

i even added labels to every post i had.

i have over 100 posts too!

is this really my job?

though i just came off of a 3 day july 4th weekend i do not feel rested at all. i'm a walking disater....not getting enough sleep, anxious, unfocused, and generally a miserably stressed girl. so in an effort to recharge and refuel my drained body and mind i have requested 2 days off...this friday and monday to be exact....hoping to come back as a new woman!

well, i submitted my request to VP and he replied back that it was fine as long as i check my email during my hiatus? not a joke.

seriously?

a similar incident happened during a hiatus in may when i was in charlotte getting my learning on. director (before she got canned) called me a good 3 times while i was on vacation. seriously? has the definition of personal time changed and i was unaware?

is this really my job?

a bit of a change around these parts

i have to turn in my first poetry submission next month on the 15th and right now i have nothing. i've been writing, but haven't been crafting anything into poetry and that's the most difficult part.

something about the summer makes me want to be lazy....it's the heat i think.

anyway, i have a ton of things going on this week...most of which i cannot discuss here until it's fruition....so my posting will be a bit spotty, but i will return with a vengeance sometime next week.