go hard or go home

i'm an all or nothing type of girl. i'm always at one extreme or another. i never quite find a balance. wither i'm unnecessarily mean or overly friendly; verbose or quiet, wild or prudish (i'm a prude right now); on or off; hot or cold...you get what i'm saying? this approach to life is great for dieting (my willpower is ah-mazing), but horrible for my sanity! regardless of my goal or expectations i find myself feeling like a failure because if i don't go hard it's hard for me to feel accomplished. while i enjoy writing, i've always struggled with it because i want my poems to be nearly perfect on the first draft. if my workout is anything less than an hour of nonstop movement it doesn't count for me. and don't even get me started on my piano playing!