maintaining the fab is going to be hard in the next few weeks. you see, at work i have an event coming up. due to ill planning, (i'm not going to take the blame because the communications department is notorious for this) the invitations were mailed out 2 weeks before the event...yikes! so i'm praying for a miracle guys. so far we have 10 RSVP's....so hopefully (prayerfully) another 10 can sign up so i won't look like a complete loser.

also, this grad school thing is majorly stressing me out. i have already applied to one school and i even got a reply back (i think), but thing is i haven't opened the letter...just too scared. i mailed out a second application earlier this week and will mail out my finally application by the end of this week. i probably won't ever open those letters either...unless i'm really drunk...nothing ever fazes me when i'm smashed.


but anyway, no one wants to hear about this...

why do people feel the need to inquire about your relationship status? i get this question oh, say, daily and it's starting to become quite annoying. i am such a relationship person, but i'm hardly EVER in a relationship (not even a prospect), so to be constantly reminded or made to feel funny about it is an extra hard pill to swallow. perhaps, it's out of concern, lack of conversation topics, or curiosity (maybe they want to hook me up with someone)...i dunno.



UPDATE: why do people feel the need to inquire about what you're eating (or not eating). so i work in an office where birthday's are celebrated by cakes and other sweets. yesterday we had cake and cookies for someone's birthday. i politely declined and everyone lost their minds. "well, why don't you want cake?" "do you want cookies?" "i don't understand" "you're so good...you must be on a diet." i didn't think it was that big of a deal. it was really awkward...so i left. then today was someone else's birthday so of course cake was involved....same thing. i understand that we are a celebratory nation that celebrates with food but i honestly wasn't hungry...in addition to simply not being hungry, here are other reasons why i didn't eat the cake ...it was 9am, honestly, cake makes me have the bubble guts and i didn't want to be on the toilet all day, something's wrong with me(not sick, but i've been reacting funny to food...so until my doctor appt. i'm not gonna chance it with some cheap cake).and i am not on a diet...why do i have to do on a diet if i refuse cake?.....just wanted to vent a bit!



stay fab!

work/ home/ life

so, i know i've been m.i.a for a bit. it's so funny...i had every intention on updating. i even would open the text box and be ready to hit publish, but i couldn't update for some reason. i do have a lot going on right now, so let me brief you...



my job



ugh! my job. i feel like a loser because i am always complaining about my job. but it really does cause me stress. then i stress over possible stress at a new job. it's funny how we dislike where we are at in life, yet don't change it because the newness of the new is too scary. anyway, much is the same...blah.



i do have an event to plan. and guess what? it's march 2 and nothing is planned. i'm going through these periods of excitement and creativity but then it's quickly followed by nonchalance and a general uncaring attitude. i can't stay balanced long enough to get this thing done.

my life

right now my life in general is making me smile. guess what i did? i turned in an application for a graduate program. omg...that was such a proud moment in my life. i still have 2 more to do, but with this first one out of the way it can only get easier from here. honestly, i don't know what my next move is but despite the uncertainty i am feeling confident...that 'yes we can' spirit is in my bones.

my home

is a mess. no, actually a mess. my room has transformed into a hair salon, music space, closet, office, living room, dining room, and storage area. i barely have the room to actually sleep in there. and let me tell you, my feng shui is so off...i have too much activity going on...ugh! i really need to move out, move out, move out!

stay fab!