omg, this week went by so very fast. i started the queens mfa program on sunday and tomorrow i am making the journey back home. i'm kinda sad, but i'm ready to get back to normalcy and writing.
so a brief rundown of my week.
sunday: arrived on campus, checked into my room, went to the welcome session, toured the campus, met my groups, crashed.
monday: ate breakfast, first class called 'reading as a writer,' lunch, met with my large group workshop, dinner.
tuesday: well, everyday pretty much looked the same....
stay fab!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
half sister
so i have a half sister.
i've always known i've had a half sister, but since she's never been in my life i don't mention her. well, out of the blue she found me on facebook and added me as a friend. just fyi
stay fab!
i've always known i've had a half sister, but since she's never been in my life i don't mention her. well, out of the blue she found me on facebook and added me as a friend. just fyi
stay fab!
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
lessons learned: relationships
it happened again today.
i was eating dinner with a lovely writer from the program and she asked the question.
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
i look down as i begin to cut into the large piece of meat on my plate. earlier in the day, while running errands around the city, we spotted a Middle Eastern restaurant called Grill Kabob. curious, we both decided to meet up at the restaurant after our last class of the day. however, as i played around with the tough beef kabob I wished we would have stuck to a more familiar fare.
"No," i reply as i place my fork down on the table, giving up on my attempt to finish the oddly cooked beef. i look up in time to see my dinner companion give me an awkward and astonished face, as if she'd just bitten into a cut lemon with salt sprinkled on top.
"How old are you?" she questions.
i've always wonder why people, often strangers, ask this question...
ha ha that was my attempt at fiction. but the situation was real. i just came home from dining with a new friend i met while in charlotte, then she goes and ruins the mood by asking me such a ridiculous question. however, since this question is always coming up i'm beginning to wonder if i'm not the problem; and got me to thinking about my relationship portfolio.
i've learned so much about myself from being in relationships. in my first college relationship i met a guy, let's call him Brandon. i met him through my, get this, roommate's cousin....we all attended the same school. quite honestly, i was not attracted to Brandon, but he liked me so much so i figured i should date him. WRONG! he was annoying as crap. i spent the majority of our relationship trying to get out of it! now, 5 years after our relationship i can say we are friends...but he's still annoying as all hell. through Brandon i realized that just because someone likes you, it doesn't mean you should date him.
my next important relationship happened a few years later while still in college. hmmmm, let's call him Brandon 2. and we were so off and on. always fighting and in and out of each other's life...so frustrating. at one point we were secretly together (that's a ginormous hint of a bad relationship if i ever saw one)....ugh! just thinking about this relationship angers me all over again. just recently we were in each other's lives, trying to do the relationship thing...obviously didn't work. but looking back i've realized that i changed myself too much for him. my clothes, my conversation, everything. in retrospect, i was actually physically uncomfortable around Brandon 2 because of i was hiding so much of myself. sigh.
i never want to be in a position where i am not 100% of myself with someone again.
stay fab!
(side note: are these pics cheesy? i try to add pix to break up all the words, but i'm beginning to wonder if it's over the top)
i was eating dinner with a lovely writer from the program and she asked the question.
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
i look down as i begin to cut into the large piece of meat on my plate. earlier in the day, while running errands around the city, we spotted a Middle Eastern restaurant called Grill Kabob. curious, we both decided to meet up at the restaurant after our last class of the day. however, as i played around with the tough beef kabob I wished we would have stuck to a more familiar fare.
"No," i reply as i place my fork down on the table, giving up on my attempt to finish the oddly cooked beef. i look up in time to see my dinner companion give me an awkward and astonished face, as if she'd just bitten into a cut lemon with salt sprinkled on top.
"How old are you?" she questions.
i've always wonder why people, often strangers, ask this question...
ha ha that was my attempt at fiction. but the situation was real. i just came home from dining with a new friend i met while in charlotte, then she goes and ruins the mood by asking me such a ridiculous question. however, since this question is always coming up i'm beginning to wonder if i'm not the problem; and got me to thinking about my relationship portfolio.
i've learned so much about myself from being in relationships. in my first college relationship i met a guy, let's call him Brandon. i met him through my, get this, roommate's cousin....we all attended the same school. quite honestly, i was not attracted to Brandon, but he liked me so much so i figured i should date him. WRONG! he was annoying as crap. i spent the majority of our relationship trying to get out of it! now, 5 years after our relationship i can say we are friends...but he's still annoying as all hell. through Brandon i realized that just because someone likes you, it doesn't mean you should date him.
my next important relationship happened a few years later while still in college. hmmmm, let's call him Brandon 2. and we were so off and on. always fighting and in and out of each other's life...so frustrating. at one point we were secretly together (that's a ginormous hint of a bad relationship if i ever saw one)....ugh! just thinking about this relationship angers me all over again. just recently we were in each other's lives, trying to do the relationship thing...obviously didn't work. but looking back i've realized that i changed myself too much for him. my clothes, my conversation, everything. in retrospect, i was actually physically uncomfortable around Brandon 2 because of i was hiding so much of myself. sigh.
i never want to be in a position where i am not 100% of myself with someone again.
stay fab!
(side note: are these pics cheesy? i try to add pix to break up all the words, but i'm beginning to wonder if it's over the top)
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
i've been workshopped...
today was my first workshop....well, i've been workshopped before, but never on this level....and let me just say...WOW!
it makes me question being a writer. the words and comments weren't harsh, but it was a very weird vibe which left me with a strange feeling.
it makes me question being a writer. the words and comments weren't harsh, but it was a very weird vibe which left me with a strange feeling.
Monday, May 25, 2009
a portrait of the artist as a young woman
so i arrived in charlotte yesterday to start the MFA program. i'm so excited! it is an amazing feeling to be part of such an awesome program. in my circle of friends i am the only writer i know, so to be around other writers....poets...is lovely and bizarre both at the same time.
everyone i have met so far is awesome and so dedicated to their craft; all the poets in my circle are amazing.
although i've only been here for 24 hours i have already taken a new approach to my craft. i just hope that i can carry this newness back home when the residency is over. for the first time in my life i am viewing myself as a writer....both a humbling and scary thing. although it feels great, it's also a bit overwhelming. i feel like i have a duty to those who read my work. i don't know...a barrage of thoughts are running through my head.
anyway, tomorrow is my day to workshop my poems (yikes!)and i'm a bit nervous so i'm planning on reading my work tonight before i present it so i won't stumble over anything.
but before i leave, here are some snapshots of the very humble diggs i will reside in for this residency
stay fab!
everyone i have met so far is awesome and so dedicated to their craft; all the poets in my circle are amazing.
although i've only been here for 24 hours i have already taken a new approach to my craft. i just hope that i can carry this newness back home when the residency is over. for the first time in my life i am viewing myself as a writer....both a humbling and scary thing. although it feels great, it's also a bit overwhelming. i feel like i have a duty to those who read my work. i don't know...a barrage of thoughts are running through my head.
anyway, tomorrow is my day to workshop my poems (yikes!)and i'm a bit nervous so i'm planning on reading my work tonight before i present it so i won't stumble over anything.
but before i leave, here are some snapshots of the very humble diggs i will reside in for this residency
stay fab!
Sunday, May 24, 2009
facebook is evil!
it's the torture of high school online.
in an attempt to have the most friends, you accept requests from some of the most annoying people from your past. suffering through attention craved status updates and vainglorious mobile pic updates. and you can't de-friend anyone because it makes you look petty, and blah, blah, blah.
but despite its annoyances people don't quit facebook because essentially to be in the know is much more desirable than not knowing anything at all.
sigh.
thankfully, i discovered the feature on facebook where you can hide all those staus updates and photo uploads.
stay fab!
it's the torture of high school online.
in an attempt to have the most friends, you accept requests from some of the most annoying people from your past. suffering through attention craved status updates and vainglorious mobile pic updates. and you can't de-friend anyone because it makes you look petty, and blah, blah, blah.
but despite its annoyances people don't quit facebook because essentially to be in the know is much more desirable than not knowing anything at all.
sigh.
thankfully, i discovered the feature on facebook where you can hide all those staus updates and photo uploads.
stay fab!
Friday, May 22, 2009
i work with crazies!
since the inception of this blog, it is pretty clear that the people i work with don't have much common sense or courtesy (just being honest).
but lately the crazy in my office has been on a record high. there has been several instances of bitchassness, snitching (which is kinda like bitchassness), laziness, hysteria, disillusion, and micromanagement. so this upcoming, week long hiatus at Queens is much needed! hopefully, i will return to work with a better temperment after my studies.
anyway, this summer is projected to be a big one! my little sister is FINALLY graduating from college (i say finally, but she is only stayng an extra semester) and to celebrate we are hitting up VEGAS!
i know vegas is a cliche getaway, but i've never been and quite honestly i haven't been wild since i was in college so it's time to get it!
i will keep you all posted on the planning for this trip!
stay fab!
but lately the crazy in my office has been on a record high. there has been several instances of bitchassness, snitching (which is kinda like bitchassness), laziness, hysteria, disillusion, and micromanagement. so this upcoming, week long hiatus at Queens is much needed! hopefully, i will return to work with a better temperment after my studies.
anyway, this summer is projected to be a big one! my little sister is FINALLY graduating from college (i say finally, but she is only stayng an extra semester) and to celebrate we are hitting up VEGAS!
i know vegas is a cliche getaway, but i've never been and quite honestly i haven't been wild since i was in college so it's time to get it!
i will keep you all posted on the planning for this trip!
stay fab!
Sunday, May 17, 2009
oh, is that next week?
so i've been totally oblivious to the calender because i forgot that my writing program starts next week. oops! i have a ton of reading to do, and although i've started on it, i've been reading as a casual reader, rather than as a grad student...ugh!!!
UPDATE: in addition to not reading, i've also just realized that i missed about 7 books that i need to buy...oops...this grad school thing is not starting off too well!
stay fab!
UPDATE: in addition to not reading, i've also just realized that i missed about 7 books that i need to buy...oops...this grad school thing is not starting off too well!
stay fab!
Saturday, May 16, 2009
abundant life
hey all!
i'm back from my sabbatical (ha!) and i feel renewed and ready to blog! tons of stuff has been going on, but it's a ton of the same stuff. so i will take my time on updating about work and what is new in my life.
while i was away, my spiritual life has really blossomed and i really feel invigorated and more prepared to face the world. from february until mid april i fasted from the telly.
there were numerous reasons why i did it (1. to focus on writing and preparing grad school applications 2. to grow closer to God 3. because the tv is garbage). and let me tell you, fasting is such a awesome experience. despite your religion, beliefs, or life views one should always make the time to nurture their spirituality (just my opinion).
anyway, during my fast from the telly i was drawn to the phrase of living abundantly. first, i happened to read John 10:10 in which Jesus basically says that he lived and died so that we can live abundant lives. ok, so i got that message. but for the whole entire fast the concept of abundant living reappeared. from a friend who i haven't spoken to in awhile leaving me a voicemail talking about abundant life, to several facebook statuses about the abundant life, and so on. and i don't think it's a coincident!
now that i have these "signs" about living abundantly it is pretty obvious that the fast taught me to live abundantly, but quite honestly i don't know what that means. of course, i know that abundant means rich in quantity (or something like that), but i'm so accustomed to living my life so safely and securely that living fully, though i understand the concept, is new to me. where do i start? what do i do? and where do i begin?
i've been sitting on this abundant life for far too long.
stay fab!
i'm back from my sabbatical (ha!) and i feel renewed and ready to blog! tons of stuff has been going on, but it's a ton of the same stuff. so i will take my time on updating about work and what is new in my life.
while i was away, my spiritual life has really blossomed and i really feel invigorated and more prepared to face the world. from february until mid april i fasted from the telly.
there were numerous reasons why i did it (1. to focus on writing and preparing grad school applications 2. to grow closer to God 3. because the tv is garbage). and let me tell you, fasting is such a awesome experience. despite your religion, beliefs, or life views one should always make the time to nurture their spirituality (just my opinion).
anyway, during my fast from the telly i was drawn to the phrase of living abundantly. first, i happened to read John 10:10 in which Jesus basically says that he lived and died so that we can live abundant lives. ok, so i got that message. but for the whole entire fast the concept of abundant living reappeared. from a friend who i haven't spoken to in awhile leaving me a voicemail talking about abundant life, to several facebook statuses about the abundant life, and so on. and i don't think it's a coincident!
now that i have these "signs" about living abundantly it is pretty obvious that the fast taught me to live abundantly, but quite honestly i don't know what that means. of course, i know that abundant means rich in quantity (or something like that), but i'm so accustomed to living my life so safely and securely that living fully, though i understand the concept, is new to me. where do i start? what do i do? and where do i begin?
i've been sitting on this abundant life for far too long.
stay fab!
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